Blog One - Who we want to become is who we are not
I don't try and purposely make mistakes, but challenges arise, old habits resurface to test your new mindset. We are in the spiral of yin and yang, dark and light, truth and lies..
I've just made it to 13 months sober... It is my longest run of sobriety. I have tried to give up in the past, I didn't think I was relapsing because I also did not think I had a problem. I have raised my awareness to know that drinking alcohol and drugs do not work for me. They spiral my into depression, anxiety, isolation, weight gain etc etc. This time, I know I will not go back because I have developed an iron will and non-negotiable mindset - I still have really challenging days - I am a human, I'm not perfect.
To answer your last two questions... yes I have relapsed multiple times. In the past I would always make it worse. For example, I would drink and then the next day I would eat absolute crap food which made me feel even worse. I would then resent myself and feel even worse. The trick is, DO NOT MAKE YOUR PROBLEMS WORSE eq. It is too easy to pick up the drugs or alcohol again and then also start making shit choices all across your life
The solution /how to deal with it: (this is only one step in the process…)
Set a wake up time. The same, everyday. If you have varying shift work or similar, then work around that and have a set time for each different days of the week - but it must be adhered to!!!!!. The daily non-negotiable wakeup time is the absolute cornerstone of staying sober. It will sharpen your discipline like nothing else. This is the foundation for developing awareness and deep commitment to yourself. Every time you walk up like this, it is very confronting. This is how you develop the fortitude to confront your old beliefs, habits and addictions. There are other habits to develop and tools to use, check out some of my other videos, I cannot cover it all in this response.
WHO WE WANT TO BECOME, IS WHO WE ARE NOT
The ego will try and hold on to the old self and negative habits. The old self has to be burnt down so the new self can rise in light!
