Before I fastened myself the above values of Strength, sobriety and security, I realized I already had some “values” they were:

WEAK WASTED WORRIED

My body was soft, I didn’t train. I made excuses everyday. It was everyone else’s fault. I was continually coerced into drugs by my own drunken mind and the drunken arrogance of others. I was worried about what others thought of me - I tried to act how I thought people wanted me to be, instead of standing in my truth. My self-worth caved from the words of others and their opinions. I had no foundation to support myself.

My attempt at 75 hard.

Have I ever relapsed?
Don’t make your problems worse!