It is not to be chased or clutched at with desperation, but the lesson of reverence is to simply allow it, to be reverent in that divine moment when peace, patience and power converge into presence… allowing simple thoughts and desires to melt away, to be in union with the divine creator itself, to oscillate in the frequency of life without substance, stimulants or chemicals, this is the path. To vibrate at a resonance which is the true essence of experience THAT IS REVERENCE.

Before I fastened myself the above values of Strength, sobriety and security, I realized I already had some “values” they were:

WEAK WASTED WORRIED

My body was soft, I didn’t train. I made excuses everyday. It was everyone else’s fault. I was continually coerced into drugs by my own drunken mind and the drunken arrogance of others. I was worried about what others thought of me - I tried to act how I thought people wanted me to be, instead of standing in my truth. My self-worth caved from the words of others and their opinions. I had no foundation to support myself.

My attempt at 75 hard.

Have I ever relapsed?
Don’t make your problems worse!