Energy

Energy is a very real thing, an unseen force experienced beyond sight, words, touch, taste and thought.

There are many, many names and descriptions of energy… like everything it has multiple layers and levels, nuances and extremities. 

It can often show up as a physical sensation as the body decodes it, into an understandable and intelligible “language”.



Often I would drink alcohol to escape energy. Negative energy that I had cultivated inside my body. I was not aware that it was energy, I was just aware that I hated what I was feeling and wanted it to change. One of the only ways I knew how to change my energy was to intoxicate myself with substances, usually alcohol and often marijuana. 



Sure enough the next day after “escaping” that energy through substance and mind alteration, it would be back! Often evolved and mutated into an even more unpleasant form of energy.

The sweet escape of alcohol is only temporary… a time bound dilution of the conscious mind…. the high of dope always has a come down… a substance induced trance fueled by a chemical reaction…

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who you really are, will always return upon waking up the next day or try to emerge somewhere in the slow detox that your body desperately tries to kick start between drinks and smokes.



Once I got sober and walked through the hell of my own thoughts I started to notice a shift in energy. I started to notice that energy could be used! transmuted… pain could be turned into power! My goal now is to experience the deeper and more minute subtleties of energy. To continue to attune my body to the shifts and vibrations that are none stop communicating with each other in this fascinating world.