Sober Day 1,330: Reverence

Today I celebrate 1,330 days committed to sobriety and clean from drugs. [43+ months, 3.6 years…]

I also celebrate 37+ months free from looking at, watching or engaging with all forms of pornographic materials.

I take a moment to celebrate these wins 🙏

Sometimes I get so caught up in bigger goals, visions and tasks that I forget how important these daily disciplines and commitments are. They mean so much to me. They are the foundations of my path into reverence.

Why?

Because it reminds me of how committed I am to this process of self expansion. Expanding my capabilities. Everyday that I choose sobriety I elevate my state of awareness. Everyday that I choose sobriety I enable my body to heal from 20+ years of poisoning. Everyday that I consciously choose what type of media and content i consume, I consciously build my state of mind and which guides my conscience and unconscious minds.

Everyday that I choose sobriety I create a more stable platform to experience reverence.

Reverence is defined as (retrieved from https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/reverence ):

1 : honor or respect felt or shown

especially : profound adoring awed respect.

In the past I had merely only heard this word. I had never felt its meaning or experienced its power. I had not ever used the word reverence in a conversation or even a thought, because it was not something I thought about or was familiar with. It was not discussed in my family, circles or community.

Getting sober, clean and focused has enabled me to experience deep reverence many times. I have experienced reverence with myself, reverence with nature, my ancestors and especially reverence with god: Of whom I was very against and did not want to let into my life.

Once I stopped worshipping substance and poison, the creator naturally had room to… well… create.



At first, the feeling of reverence was very foreign to me. The rapture and joy of a simple moment, how could something so simple be so divine? The overwhelming pleasure of purpose and peace.

At times i have craved this feeling. When I chase reverence, it repels itself from me like two opposing magnetic forces. However, when I step into deep alignment and acceptance it slowly bubbles and elevates through my being. It is not to be chased or clutched at with desperation, but the lesson of reverence is to simply allow it, to be reverent in that divine moment when peace, patience and power converge into presence… allowing simple thoughts and desires to melt away, to be in union with the divine creator itself, to oscillate in the frequency of life without substance, stimulants or chemicals, this is the path. To vibrate at a resonance which is the true essence of experience THAT IS REVERENCE.



Writing this brings up deep emotions of purpose and pride for the many steps I have taken to get to this moment.

I seek to inspire you to build a personal platform to experience reverence. That means committing to daily disciplines like sobriety, clean living and practices like nature bathing and meditation - its not about perfection, it is about patience and practice.

What excites me, and scares me at the same time, is that i know there is much, much deeper and more transformative experiences awaiting my soul growth.

The scary part about it is that for those new “levels” or “layers” to be experienced requires the stripping away of self, relinquishing more parts of myself and committing deeper the prayer, practice and patience.



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